For the last five weeks, my husband and I have been involved in the What We Do Challenge. This five-week challenge consisted of prayer, fasting, memorizing scripture and serving others. The purpose? To make Jesus to make sense to anyone and everyone and to express the tangible love of Christ to those in our community and path of life. Christians can be a bit weird and this series aimed at making sense of why we do what we do.
Last weekend was Go and Do weekend, where over 2,000 people went out into the community to work on different projects; from building tiny homes for the homeless, yard work for a single mom, building skate ramps for kids and teens, cleaning up local area parks to serving at a memory care facility. That’s where my husband and I chose to serve last weekend. So, we met up at our church with our group and headed out into the community from there. Our group was large, and we had several different activities that we would be doing with the residents of the memory care facility.
Sometimes I think God has a way of using something you’re doing for others to bring awareness of something in your own life, and possibly calling you out beyond a point where you feel comfortable but there is something he is asking you to do that will bring him honor and glory. I feel like God was doing that with me last weekend. I remember being a new Christ follower, a baby Christian, so to speak, and hearing the song “Oceans” by Hillsong for the first time. That song was so powerful and spoke into my life giving me direction and guidance during those first few years. I had a goal that I wanted to sing that song in front of others, declaring God’s truth and power that he had used to transform my life and rescue me, that sometimes he calls you out beyond where you can see, but he keeps your eyes above the waves and doesn’t let you sink below the surface of the water. He is your life preserver, giving you not only life in the here and now but life for all eternity if you choose to accept it.
There was one problem with my desire and passion to sing that song in front of other people… First, I have always loved singing, and have even done my fair share of karaoke; but let’s face it, singing worship in front of a bunch of people is way different than Tuesday night karaoke at the bar. Second, I don’t have the voice of an angel, I can get away with karaoke but I’m not so sure about singing in front of a group of people, especially when there are far more musically talented people who can do a much better job than I. Third, I cannot really sing worship music without breaking into tears at the thought of how loved I am by God and how blessed I am to have the life that I do. It is an overwhelming feeling. So, I had finally come to terms with the fact that I would probably never sing worship songs in front of people, just on my drive to work. Fourth, I’m usually nervous when I must be up in front of people, although I do enjoy speaking and singing, it still makes me nervous.
Well sometimes God uses something that you’re doing to help others, to work in you and speak into your life also. So, our group was supposed to be leading worship and doing a short devotional with the residents. One of the gentlemen in our group played the guitar and started singing some older hymns that I didn’t recognize, but I felt the urge to get up there and provide some back up vocals. Sometimes the calling that God places on your heart doesn’t make sense to you and might seem like the total opposite from where you think he would call you. Yet that day, he called me to sing in front of the entire group with the man playing guitar. After he got through two older hymns, he pulled out the lyrics and sheet music for “Oceans” and I tried to not break into tears. There is something about that song that just touches my soul; something I can’t explain.
When I was singing that song, it may not have sounded like angels, but everyone said what a great job our small group did singing, and no one said anything negative. Does that mean I have a future leading worship? Probably not, but God called me into a place that I didn’t necessarily feel comfortable and I got to sing the song I had always wanted to. He also reminded me that although I may think I have no gift in singing, I may not be as bad as ‘I’ think I am. We are always our own worst critics.
So, what is the big takeaway from all of this? I think it would have to be to trust in God, listen to where He is leading you, and be willing to trust Him even when it doesn’t make sense and that even if you feel like what you’re doing is small compared to someone else’s efforts, it still makes a lasting impact when you can tangibly show the love of Christ to others who otherwise may never know who Jesus is. Even a cool glass of water given to someone in the name of Christ is praiseworthy and honorable for the kingdom of God.
So where is God trying to lead you that you aren’t sure about? Do you trust Him enough to listen and to follow? How is God trying to use an opportunity you’re in to work in your own heart to shape and mold you?
I am blessed and proud to be part of a church that loves and cares about those who don’t know Jesus, and who would pour out themselves for others who may never thank them or give them praise for what they have done. We do it because we care and because it has been done for us.
God bless you and we pray that God would continue working in your lives. If you have any questions for us, or would like more information please email us at firstname.lastname@example.org